A Day of Downcast

Tdy Sunday 6 Sept, couldnt sleep much last nite, woke up at 530am and went bath n prepared to go out. Left house at 545 and went airport for breakfast at Mcdonald's, went there did alot of thinking n questioning.

Many things has just taken place in my life and jus do not understand why....After breakfast went to expo and waited for pre-service to start at 815. Reached expo at 715am and wondered ard and saw many pple getting ready for the yellow ribbon run. Just felt my heart so heavy with so many questions and no answers, did not know what to do...even til now.

Went for pre-service and just felt a touch but yet still many questions and no answers. Just felt so miserable and pain but yet cant bear to let go. What should I do next? Mixed feelings or no just feelings or just didnt know how I felt? Just felt so downcast.

After service, just didnt have the mood to eat at all....felt so lost n pain, went ECP and jus sat there looking at the waves moving in n out of the shore and thinking on life....life is just like the waves, many ups n downs...move up n down at different points.

The peak and joy of the day was evening where I get to see the 1 that truly matters to me the most, one that is the joy n pride of my life. One who truly understands me the most. Time always comes to a standstill whenever I am with her.

Went Tiong Bahru for teochew porridge, still feeling downcast but the sight of her brings a little glitter of joy in my heart, the smile, laughter n giggles is what I always want to remember. After dinner, went to shop awhile before going for movies. The warmth is just so strong with her. Her presence brings much joy to me in the midst of the feeling downcast. Every moment is just so special.