Looking Ahead

What is there to look ahead for now...the future seems so dark and I dono wat I am looking ahead for. Things just have changed so drastically and I just dono what to look for. How do I actually feel about it? Seems lost... it is back to square one again.

Is this the price to pay for all these? Lord what is it u are bringing me thru? Why all these situations? Moulding process or what it is? I do not know...jus know that i hope things were different...really different, not what it is now....:(

Sadness feels me now...heart aching now....heart in great pain too.....